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Normally, a post like this would be a “Things I Love” post, but I’m going to be a bit different this time and call it a “Things I’m Grateful For” post.

The past few months have been different to say the least.

I’ve been happy, I’ve been sad, I’ve been devastated, I’ve been excited, I’ve been depressed, and I’ve been appreciative - just to name a few things. The roller coaster of emotions I’ve experienced lately has led me to this post. I don’t care if anyone ever reads it, but I want to express it so here it goes.

I’m thankful for my friends. They’ve helped me through some really rough times and it’s a great feeling knowing that they’ll be there for me when I need them, just as I’ll be there for them when they need me.

I’m thankful for my children. They can drive me to tears but I could never have survived the past year without them. Aside from the rest of my family, they’re the only ones who will love me unconditionally for the rest of our lives. They’re the most precious little creations God could have ever made and my only regret is that I haven’t savoured every second I’ve had with them.

I’m thankful for my family. My mom is my best friend and if I ever lost her, I think I’d die. I can’t imagine living without her. My grandma is my savior and I love her to pieces. I wish everyone had a grandma like her. My dad, my stepdad, my grandparents, my brothers, aunts, cousins, and uncle are all so important to me and I wish I had the guts to show them that all the time.

I’m thankful for my health. There’s definitely something screwy going on inside my body right now, but I keep thinking that it could be a lot worse. I can still hear and see. I can still speak. I can still walk and breathe. I can still remember, and I can still think clearly. (Well, most of the time anyway.)

I’m thankful for this guy I know. He makes me happy and he makes me laugh and he makes me want to be a better person. He also makes me cry when I think that the time I have left with him is quickly slipping away - but I’m also thankful for the fact that he’s not going away permanently.

I’m thankful for Tylenol #3’s and Gravol. It’s nowhere near as great as morphine, but it takes the pain away enough that I can think about the things I’m thankful for.

I’m thankful for my readers. It makes me feel pretty damn good when I get emails like the one I got this morning from a pleased reader. If I can make the tiniest difference in someone’s life, then it was all worth it.

I’m thankful for Final Fantasy. That game is friggin’ awesome!

I’m thankful for gel pens. Sooo much better than regular ink.

I’m thankful for the country I live in. It certainly isn’t perfect, but I sure enjoy having freedom and a sense of security.

I’m thankful for Tylenol #3’s and Gravol. Oh wait, I already said that.

I’m thankful for the roof over my head. It may not be the prettiest roof on the block, and it might not be my roof for much longer, but I’m still pretty glad it’s there. It keeps the bugs out!

I’m thankful for a lot more than just those things, but this is getting really long. I’m thankful for the ability to write whatever the hell I want, and the ability to not publish this because I’ll probably regret it later when I go back and read it after the pain meds wear off.

I’m going to be positive today. Lots of times I write about things that I hate, but this time I’m going to list some things that I love just so I don’t seem like such a grumpy bum.

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I love when my kids hug me. When my one year old wraps his little arms around my neck, I just want to squeeze the crap out of him and never let go! It’s the coolest feeling in the world. My daughter asks for hugs and kisses about 50 times a day which is awesome, but I feel guilty sometimes because it gets a tad annoying by the 49th time. Even so, I savour every second of it because I know it won’t be like that forever. I’m sure there will come a time when they won’t even want to be seen with me because I embarrass them.

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I love the smell outside after it has rained. There’s just nothing like it. Too bad they couldn’t bottle that smell and turn it into an air freshener. I’d spray that sucker around my house every hour. Actually, I’d probably wear it as perfume. I also love new car smell. Who doesn’t love that?

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I love to laugh. I’ll spend hours on YouTube watching funny videos. I love watching funny movies and TV shows. I especially love to laugh with my kids and the rest of my family. I’m lucky that I have a family with a great sense of humour. I usually have more fun with them than I do with my friends. Sorry to any friends who happen to be reading this!

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I love Gerard Butler. Period.

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I love when my kids fart. I don’t know why and that probably sounds pretty strange, but to see the look on their faces while they do it is priceless. It’s like they have no idea that they’re ripping one. That or they just don’t care. It’s funny.

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I love Pride and Prejudice, the original BBC movie with Colin Firth. I love Colin Firth too by the way! The newer version with Kiera Knightley is good, but nowhere near as awesome as the first one. I could watch that movie to the end, then start again right from the beginning and keep doing that all week. Most people think I’m a dork because of that, but I don’t give a shit!

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I love any time after 9 P.M. because that’s when my kids are in bed. I love those little bums to death, but they can be pretty exhausting. I enjoy my quiet time immensely and I’m not afraid to say it.

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I love the smell of gasoline. Not sure why but I do.

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I love the feeling of a little baby kicking and rolling around inside you. It’s so cool to be able to have a bond with a little tiny peanut you’ve never met. It’s mind boggling really to know that you created those little hands and feet that you feel moving around inside and keeping you awake at nights.

There are a lot more things that I love, but I’ll save those for another day…cause I can.